so many worries
welp right now im listening to slipknot and thinking bout many things...first off im extremely worried about shawn. he is soo depressed and its all because of me. he is in love with me for some reason. i dont see why im so great. but he is. i just hope someday he can get over me and not be so depressed. and even tho he told me he wouldnt do anything stupid, im still worried he might. just by his last diaryland entry and by how hes talking and how hes acting. he is really depressed and idk what to do. i mean....i wish i could make all his sadness and pain go away but im the one who caused it. so yea.... secondly im also a little worried about ryan. i found out he was still cutting yesterday...which is not a very good thing. i guess it has a lot to do with his gf and stress and stuff. but at least me and him are talking again. i missed having him to talk to. thirdly nicole told me today that i guess some guy in acey jacy is writting me. its one of stevens(nicoles bf) roommates and she had thought that i had known about it but i had no clue. im thinking he saw me in one of the pics nicole sent to steven cuz there were a couple with me and her from semi formal. so yea...idk. im just waiting for him to write me. i guess hes supposed to sending it to nicoles address. fourthly im thinking about sending some of my poetry to this teen literary mag called Teen Ink. its a pretty kool mag but im kinda nervous bout sending it cuz idk if they'll accept them or not cuz im not sure that they r any good or not. but yea thats pretty much it...
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